“Sometimes you just need to cry and be sad. You need to break down and be torn apart. You need to learn how to pick yourself up and put yourself back together. Sometimes, the only way to be happy is to give into sadness first, ‘cause without sadness, there is no happiness. You would never learn to smile.”

Currently lying on my bed and thinking, 'I miss so many people I miss everyone' and then this thought of needing to continue doing my work just pops in. Rekindling old friendships is always a good feeling. I'll never forget the people that have crossed my path and had an impact upon me but I know that in order to make room for new friends, others get left behind. I also currently feel like shouting 'FUCK LIFE AND EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING' out of the window not because I want to portray a bad ass character by swearing but because honestly, that is what I feel. Sometimes maybe I should just crawl into a hole and settle down all alone to sort everything out in my mind. How can I start to solve problems with others when even my own mind isn't in the proper order, right?

This night is not very pleasant as there are way too many reminders of things I want to forget.

Back to eating all the food available at home.