Sometimes I miss the past but yet sometimes I am happy with the present and I anticipate for the future (I have no idea whether it's good or bad) but definitely there are things that can be change.
Maybe as we grow older, there are many complications and implications which is why it is really difficult to build a proper relationship.
Obviously more effort is needed to make a friend, but we need to know how to make and find time to continue having the good relationship with them.
Probably the reason why most of our closer friends are made earlier in life is because we did not had many blocks... Hmm I think I make sense right?

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I want something to look forward to for the next 40 days which is not anything related to studying - if that is even possible. There is clearly something wrong with me at the amount of care I have for certain things standing in the way.
Right now.... This temporary freedom is a good thing.
I deserve a better life in the next 40 years. I deserve it.
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