currently feeling shitty and helpless. what have I done to deserve such heartache and undesired hearsay? I dislike the fact that everything in life is ever-changing. it makes me think that I've changed too. Not in a good way of course. I have this feeling of gaining and losing and gaining more again and then lose even more than I could accept. It makes me feel worse as days go by. But who can I talk to? No One. 

Forget it.